T锚te Fibre
It takes a unique mix of grey matter coupled with a dash of craziness to want to go out on a stage and perform for people. As much as an artist desires to display their intricate delights (and impart their most-prized nob-gag), before each show every fibre of their being is usually screaming to just run away and hide. No matter how many times you may have performed before, the price of conquering nerves is indeed a bitter fee.
Last Saturday's show was admittedly a weird one but it did give a rare glimpse of Russell in "pre-gig mode". Much like the Olympic flame has recently shed its light on conflicting viewpoints and opinions, the show highlighted different people in different time zones and in different moods! T'was all a bit like tasting a strong dose of honey made by a fitter bee!
Shout outs: Happy Birthday Nik
Abreast of the matter
Amateur calamities,
Caused by tantrums of travesty,
Torchlights shine bright,
Like lanterns of insanity,
Lactating for 2 Olympics,
"Tit-milk" relays the holistic,
Remedy to heal the world from unreasonable misfits,
Redefining the moon,
The sun's obliged to give room,
From the transatlantic showdown admiring the womb,
Ducked in a Bush,
Rodents reluctant to push,
So just let the vinegar be administered...
...and stuck in our mush!
Hi there,
yesterday Im wrote a blog for 45 mins, I was so proud of it, then a popup came on the screen and I pressed a button and lost the whole lot.
BAHHH!
Ner moind.
Worse fings appen at sea.
love you
mwoa
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Hey!!!!!
Well well, ere we are again. Gonna write a quicky. I lost another blog yesterday, they keep escapin, they clip their cyber wings and refuse to fly.
Ah well.
Just saw that LA vid with the Mumma Cass, I ad teaRS IN ME EYES OI DID.
We got up early today for a dental appointment. But I got the wrong day, and its next Friday!
What a muppet.
At the library now.
Glad I got these ear phones on cos ther toilets are right next to my PC, I,m on the heritage PC as all the others are booked.
The toilet was ommitting some foul noises of what can only be described as phlegmm bieng retrieved and coughed up using all the suction methods the nose and throat can muster,
MM lovley.
Its a beautiful day today. I never new so much went on early in the town, the market was vibrant and bustlin, the fruit and veg looked lovely and fresh.
Do you think you can get Adam Sandler for the show? That would be a massive treat and go down in the archives as hillarious.
I dont suppose he will be able, wiv is film star schedule. Ner mind.
I god a video today for a pound. Saturday night fever. I,ll be well away when I get ome, dancin around the lounge.
AY TONY!
Dancin will get us out of these slums and cure the ailments of the world!
So, the job huntin aint goin anywhere fast. I wanna job I can do at ome.
Theres loadsa internet offers of makin money, but the sheer amount is offputtin.
I liked all the talk about titty milk last week.
When I had littlun,I thought it would be a pleasurable experience.
But it was the most terrifying fing eve. Midwives kep gesticulatin at me to put cabbage leaves on me boobiyz. I was just insulted.
I called the dok an said I ad mastitis, he said he would be the judge of that an came round to av a gander.
He said to me , " youre very scared arnt you."
I though e meant I was scared of im an said yes.
But he said I had starey eyeds and was deep breathing. It was baby shock.
The midwife pressed my babies face abainst me nipp forcing him to feed, he went blue, through bieng suffocated, so she said I ad to go to the hospital as he may have had a heart murmur due toi goin blue.
E didnt av a heart murmur, just lacked in oxygen. I nearly ad a heart murmur, finkin that e ad a bad heart.
No one told me about breast feedin, about the let down reflex. So poor littly was suckin for dear life and gettin nuffin.
He sucked so fantically, me nipps were actually hanging off!
I cried every time.
It were bloody awful.
I gave up an bottle fed. Advesed to not breast feed as it was sending me radio rental with all the crazy horemones. IO was determined not to give up. Baby had given up, he wernt interested in me boobs any more, so I started feedin him just at night when he was asleep. It worked out fine. But I did lose my mind. I didnt care thopugh. Whenever anyone phoned up I couldnt speak for cryin.
My emotions went up the creek. But its nature.
Anyway I gotto go now. Time up. Can you all send some prayers up that I get to do a job I love, please.
You love me.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Bec
Hi The Brandy Gang,
On Tuesday I dedecated a little write up to one of my favourite clients who I work with in mental health, but it didnt go up.
I wont go into details but this particular client lost a nephew to drugs, just wanted to say that I he will be putting some money into Focus 12 which is a charity for recovering addicts, and one that our Russell holds dear to his heart.
I read in the paper that our Russ is going to have an image change and that he may be getting his locks chopped. Apparently hes not being taken seriously enough coz of his identity!!
I dont think this is a good idea cutting your hair would be like cutting out part of your personality
for gawds sake!! I dont like the sound of this at all I for one love your image its unique, sexy and just gorgous!! You dont have to conform to
LA`s `conceited image, I will be vewy upset if they cut your locks off the filthy swines!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel so much better today been under a grey cloud for a couple of weeks the old depression was setting in and I was finding everything so hard to deal with. I know this sounds a bit bizzare but i treat depression like my dark friend now, it just makes me keep my emotions in check and when im having a good day i really enjoy the silly little things we take for granted.
Ive been spending alot of time doing a bit of soul searching and trying to find my identity, Ive
had two really sour relationships in the last year and feel a part of me was taken ay by these guys. Having spent alot of time reflecting on myself i realise i have so much to be thankful for, my friends my family my health all things ive been taking for granted.
Life is a journey and we take many paths, sometimes there are rocky routes, others we get through, its a blessing when are paths are clear.
Suffering with Depression I find it difficult to really connect in relationships and can come across as cold and distant. I wish I had been kinder to one particular ex i rejected him so muxh even though i loved him he ended up running off to Cornwall. I hope hes OK lifes too short to hold grudges. He was kind to me and taught me alot about myself and were I go wrong with men.
I wish i could put the time in with my friends and family that i do in my work, I hope thay they realise how much I do love them even when I cant show it.
Hope all goes well in Saturday.
Loadsalove and kisses.
k xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
It does take a lot to perform on stage. I have been in a band for 10 years now and there are still some nerves every time.
I find it hardest to transfer it into my work, where I have to present in front of people I don't know in the world of business development in the digital marketing arena.
Well done in writing your book. You must be very proud of your achievements!
Hiya
Whatchoo bin up ta?
Theres a lovely breeze in the air today.
I was listening to it and without really trying, picked up a little whisper.
The whisper said,
" My most beloved, I will always take care of you.
You are my treasure and I will cover you with my love. Drink in my goodness."
After I heard this, I felt my shoulders loosen up and my bad nerves started to look ridiculous.
I thought, "Why do I spend my time worrying about everyone, as if they are all trying to get me."
Shut your eyes and you might hear that whisper too. Its so refreshing!
It makes you take a deep braeth and exhale all your worries.