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The musical instrument you can play with your fingers, legs or eyes

Designed for disabled people, the Clarion gets recognition for the skill needed to play it.

Access All collaborates with 傖佪壖 Radio 3 on an item about the Clarion, a musical instrument which can be played by anyone by anything - from fingers to Eyegaze technology. Our guests are Barry Farrimond-Chuong, the CEO of Open Up Music, who helped design the software instrument, and Alessandro Vazzana a player of the Clarion in the National Open Youth Orchestra who is enabled to chat with us by his mum, Anne.

Do you find it hard getting a wheelchair through the traditional means? Nick Goldup from the Wheelchair Alliance talks about its latest report which uncovered a postcode lottery when it comes to wheelchair services. We meet 19-year-old Lachlan from Devon who has Ehlers-Danlos syndrome and needs a wheelchair most of the time, but he's been waiting nearly a year for a chair that fits him properly.

And at 24, Ellie Middleton was diagnosed as being autistic and having ADHD. Her book Unmasked talks about why women and girls often get diagnosed late in life, and how she felt vindicated that she wasn't a bad person - something she had come to believe.

Presenters: Nikki Fox and Emma Tracey. Recorded and mixed by MC Dave O'Neill. And Produced by Beth Rose, Alex Collins, Hayley Clarke and Emma Tracey. The Editor is Damon Rose, Senior Editor Sam Bonham.

"Alexa, ask the 傖佪壖 for Access All" plays the latest edition of the programme. Follow us on X, formerly Twitter, @傖佪壖淲ccessAll and on old-fashioned email we're access.all@bbc.co.uk

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04th December 2023

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Access All episode 81

Presented by Nikki Fox and Emma Tracey

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Hey, Emma, I got very excited. I noticed theres a Nikki Fox doing Desert Island Discs.

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LAUREN-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Dr Nicola Fox, welcome to Desert Island Discs.

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EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, the most recent episode. Did you forget youd done it?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I mean, you know Ive been having trouble with this CPAP machine that I need for my sleep apnoea. And Im not getting any sleep whatsoever. And when I saw it I did think to myself, oh my goodness, have I really not slept that much that Ive done Desert Island Discs and I didnt remember it [laughter], because it is the dream job. And so I had hoped that I would remember it. But yeah, I would love to go on Desert Island Discs, Em.

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LAUREN-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Nikki Fox, I want to talk to you about your mother. Tell me about her approach to bringing you up?

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EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But it wasnt you?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, it wasnt me, it was a doctor. [Singing] doctor, doctor

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Dr Nikki Fox.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, which I am definitely not.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Head of Science at NASA, yeah.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, definitely not me. I have not got enough in the old bonce to be that smart. I mean, I would agonise for weeks beforehand as to what tracks I would choose. Its stressing me now thinking about it.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, you dont have weeks to agonise.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, I dont.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Because lets pretend that were on Desert Island Discs right now.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Okay.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Desert Island Discs theme music] Nikki Fox?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 If you could take one disc to the island what one would it be?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh. Dont you come up with different tracks on Desert Island Discs?

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, but I thought Id try and shortcut it and get to the last one.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Okay, one of them would be Moments of Pleasure by Kate Bush from the Red Shoes album. It links to my family, its beautiful and it makes me cry. If it was going to be an album, Im just going to put it up there, it would be Kate Bush Hounds of Love.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Okay. So, what would your luxury item be?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, thatd be wax strips [laughs].

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But no ones going to see you on the island!

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It doesnt matter. I dont wax for anyone else, Ems, I wax for me.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Anyway, lets move on. You can take the Bible and the Collective Works of Shakespeare, but you can also take one more book to the island. Nikki, what would that be?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Does My Bum Look Big in This by Arabella Weir.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Wow. Why?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its just the first book I ever read and I was so proud of myself for reading it.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I met her on a train once.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Did you?

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I did. Now, how accessible do you think this island would be for you, Nikki?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Laughs]

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 How are you at roughing it?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, Id be lucky if I lasted two days, lets face it. But Id be hair free.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, Nikki, thank you for joining me on this Desert Island Discs.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Somebody get this girl the gig.

MUSIC-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Theme music.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 This is Access All from the 傖佪壖, where we have gone 100% Christmas.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Uh, no we havent. Thats another radio station, Nikki. I think the 傖佪壖紵s a little bit more restrained than that.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thatd be such a nice gig though, wouldnt it, playing Christmas songs all day every day. But this is a nice gig too, innit, you know. We are the 傖佪壖紵s disability and mental health podcast, and were here every week. Im Ronan Keating.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Uh, shes actually Nikki Fox, and Im Emma Tracey.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Now, this week, finding it hard to get a wheelchair? Well, a new report agrees with you.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And were still celebrating International Day of Disabled People and have teamed up with Radio 3, get us, to talk about access to music. Its all linked to an instrument called the clarion which has been created for everyone to play.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I love it, I love it. And weve talked about this before, but today weve got a personal take on the subject. ADHD and autism is not recognised as easily if youre a woman or a girl. Author and influencer Ellie Middleton is here to talk about this in about 20 minutes time.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Like, subscribe, follow us, hit those buttons wherever you see Access All, and tell your friends about us because we want to get this programme to as many people as possible who could benefit from it, which is everybody really.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 A new report out today paints a bleak picture for wheelchair users in England. It says provision for funding is a postcode lottery causing some users to have wheelchairs that dont meet their needs, and many waiting long periods of time to actually get a chair. Now, joining us on the podcast to talk about this is Nick Goldup from the Wheelchair Alliance who commissioned the report. Hello, Nick. Thank you so much for coming on.

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thanks very much for having me.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, its brilliant, thank you. And weve also got lovely Lachlan Ive pronounced it right have I, Lachlan? from Devon.

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Yes, you have.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Ah. Hey Lachlan. Now, were going to talk about your chair situation in a minute, so bear with us darling, bear with us. But Nick, lets just establish some facts first of all for anyone that doesnt know how the wheelchair service runs. But Im right in saying that anyone who needs a wheelchair, whether that be temporarily or permanently, is entitled to one through the NHS. Normally people need a referral through the GP or any kind of specialist wheelchair service. That is correct? Ive not oversimplified that, have I?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, that is correct, yes. People who need a wheelchair should be able to access that through their wheelchair provider.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Perfect. So, the Wheelchair Alliance youve got this report out today, give us an idea of the state of the wheelchair services in England. Just how much variation is there? Because we mentioned its a postcode lottery, so just fill us in, Nick.

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I suppose for about three decades now weve had reports made by various different people, government, voluntary sector, charities, and very little action in terms of improving access to the right wheelchair at the right time. And just last year the Wheelchair Alliance we pulled together our first report which really looked at the state of the nation. And there were three things really we found: one was that the funding levels were totally unacceptable, so the government spending on wheelchairs was averaging at about 瞿196 per person per year.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Wow.

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So,泭 thats everything from a basic chair all the way through to a power chair, and maintenance and insurance. And data didnt exist, so there was a real data desert. So, how can you understand the scale of demand if you dont know how many wheelchair users youre seeing through your local service?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That is not going to cut the mustard, is it, 100 odd quid per person?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its not. And thats an average. But thats really a reflection of the lack of data.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Which is always a problem when it comes to disability. I spend my life in this job just fighting with a lack of data. Also I used to know the wheelchair services, I always used to call them the NHS wheelchair services, but obviously, like weve touched on, its all be diverted now, hasnt it, to 42 integrated care boards. Is that right? So, basically just explain how it all works now, rather than all coming from the NHS.

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Ill try and do it simply. There are 42 integrated care boards, so they are the organisations that basically commission when I say commission, sort of buy the services on behalf of government so that local services can be run. And theres a lot to be said about running services locally: you can meet local needs and make sure that the service matches local need. But with that comes a host of issues as well in terms of variation, and the report really digs into this and shows that if youve got 42 different ICBs theyve got different contracts; theyve got different providers, some of which are the NHS and some are private organisations, and that split is about 55%, 45% private; different funding model; different methods; different levels of funding. And so what happens inevitably is you get these different eligibility criteria. So, they need to manage their budget so they say, if you have a certain disability or you can, I dont know, walk a certain distance then we wont give you a power chair, you can have a manual chair.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And I suppose as the person that needs the wheelchair youre not in control of where you live, are you? So, its not like you can go, oh Im going to be in an area where its coming out of the NHS; youve got no say in that really, have you? And I wonder, how do you find in your capacity, how is the money being spent really. Do you find its being spent efficiently across the board or not?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, because of the variation, as I say, in different levels of service you get different quality. And if you think about how money is spent through the wheelchair service theres only two areas really where you can flex: and one is staff, and we need more staff supporting our NHS wheelchair services; or its equipment. And especially when the cost of equipment has gone through the roof in the last year or so the budgets have just come under a lot of pressure, a lot of strain.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Are there parts of the UK that are worse than others when it comes to all this provision and eligibility criteria and everything?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its hard to say without, you know, I dont really want to name names. But there are areas where people have a tougher time of getting what they need. But the benefit of having the right wheelchair is just huge in terms of autonomy, integrating into the community, travel, better education opportunities, and physical health as well, fewer pressure sores hopefully if youve got the right piece of equipment you have a reduced likelihood of falling from your chair or having back pain, just improving your overall fitness through the right wheelchair.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, 100%. Now, Lachlan, youve been hearing all of this. Hello.

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Yes, hello.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Youre from Devon, arent you, darling. Youre 19 and youre studying at college at the moment. What are you studying, out of interest?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Im studying a Level 3 in health and social care.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Nice, very interesting. So, tell our listeners what your current situation is. And do you mind me asking what disability youve got?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 So, Ive got Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, which is a connective tissue disorder, so I dont have enough collagen. So, I use my wheelchair for that purpose. I dont always use my wheelchair; I can walk quite a bit, but that increases fatigue.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, what have you got at the moment, what are you sitting your tush on?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 I've currently got a Quickie Argon 2.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Is that a motorised, do you mind me asking?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 No, its a manual active use chair. The one Ive ordered next is the same type of chair, just a bigger version of it because Ive grown.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But its not appropriate for you right now.

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 No.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And as Nicks touched on, Im sure well go back to Nick as well, the wrong type of chair can be very detrimental. Is this particular one that youre in now causing any problems for you?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Im quite lucky in the fact that because I move around pressure sores arent a massive concern for me because I dont sit still. But if I sat in a chair properly, how its designed to sit in, it would tear on the back of my legs. But I get around that by not sitting in it correctly; but then that causes other issues. So, its sort of a balancing act.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, how long have you been waiting for this new chair that you are due?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 On 16th February we requested an appointment with Wheelchair Services of 2023, and that was when I first found it properly not fitting. It took till 4th April for us to have an appointment with Wheelchair Services, and at that appointment the clinician they didnt feel confident prescribing a chair in the manner I needed it. The upper leg part needed to be longer than typical, so it delayed the whole process. And its really difficult one where you have to constantly ring them up, you have to constantly push them. Nothing gets done unless youre literally on the phone to them sort of chasing the progress of the chair.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 When are you expected to get your chair, Lachlan? This is the thing, right.

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Ive got an appointment for 15th December.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Right okay. And is that when you pick it up?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Thats when I should get my chair. I should receive it on that date. Ive not got high hopes for it from a perspective of the whole process has been quite a messy process. And at no point have I received any confirmation that a chair has been ordered at all. And Ive lost count of the times weve rung them up, weve asked where it is in the manufacturing process, weve asked is this confirmation its been ordered. The only thing that weve had confirmation for is from the PWP team that I paid 瞿50 for having a nice colour of paint rather than the standard, and 瞿50 for castors as well. But other than that we havent had any confirmation paperwork at all to prove that Ive ordered anything.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Does that worry you?

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Previously Ive had bad experiences with chairs not being right, Ive had it before the chairs come completely the wrong size, so much so that I couldnt even squeeze into it, let alone it fit me correctly. I hope its right, I really do, and I really want it to be right, but I just dont feel like it will be.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We reached out for a statement from the National Health Service executive and they said: the NHS is providing wheelchairs for the vast majority of people who need them within 18 weeks. And the NHS provides personal wheelchair budgets which give people more choice and control.

泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And just a little bit of extra information: were told that in the second quarter of 2023 over 80% of adults and children had equipment delivered within that 18 weeks.

泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Nick, what reforms would you like to see? What is the solution to this issue?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Theres a few things really wed like to see. So, the report pulls out that firstly more investment is needed in wheelchair services, so that would result in such a huge positive economic impact. We calculate that, its not a lot of money, 瞿22 million each year could really unlock some benefits to society that we estimate would be worth about 瞿60 million. There are details in the report, but if the benefit to individuals increases by 1%, which is very, very modest, that benefit could be unlocked. If it was a 5% increase that would be 瞿315 million benefit to society is the figure put on that. So, it seems a no-brainer.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, 瞿22 million and you guys have figured out that it would turn into 瞿60 million in terms of what people could do if they had the right chair, work, out in the economy etc etc?

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Absolutely yes. And I dont know the overall budget of the NHS, but 瞿22 million feels like a rounding error I would imagine. Its not a lot of money, which would improve the quality of provision across England. And that needs to be spent on frontline services; it needs to be spent on people to run these services, staff I mean to do the assessments, but also on equipment. So, my next ask would be really that the NHS recognises this issue and we can implement some changes. This has to be the report that triggers change. We cant put this on the shelf and let it collect dust; theres been too many over the last decades [ironic laugh]. This needs to drive change, and thats the goal of the Wheelchair Alliance.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well done for getting that in, Nick.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, well done. Honestly, I love that. Thank you so, so much guys. Well, if youve got anything to tell us about this story, if youre having a problem with a wheelchair or if you cant get the right one, or youre waiting, like Lachlan, for well pretty much nearly a year, then get in contact with us: accessall@bbc.co.uk is our email address. And also check out the Wheelchair Alliance website as well. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you two.

LACHLAN-泭泭泭泭 Thank you.

NICK-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thank you so much.

[Clarion music plays]

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That beautiful music is called Soaring Sparks by Michael Betteridge, and its being played on a clarion. Now, a clarion is a musical instrument which is about to break open the music scene like no other. The clarion its a fully inclusive instrument, anyone can play it because it can hook up to assistive technology, a bit like the Eyegaze which enables people who cant speak in a traditional way to use their eyes. And now the Associated Board of the Royal School of Music has recognised its potential, and similar to more traditional instruments like the piano and the violin and all the wind instruments and everything is going to be offering what they call open assessments to give players feedback on their playing from 2024 thats going to happen. Now, this will help legitimise the clarion as an instrument which takes skills and a lot of practise to play. But theres another dilemma, I find this fascinating, the clarion is driven by a computer, which means it can imitate any instrument it likes. But the designer behind it wants to give it its own unique sound to make the clarion in demand. Now, the question is: what should it sound like? We are joined now by Barry Farrimond-Chuong, one of the people who designed the instrument, and he also runs Open Up Music, which is an organisation which runs inclusive orchestras. Thank you so much for coming on.

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 An absolute pleasure.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What does it look like, Barry?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its a piece of software, thats the first thing to say. But its a musical instrument more than its a piece of software. I mean, it would be like describing a violin as a piece of wood. Thats just what this musical instrument happens to be made of. And what you look at when youre on the screen, when the clarion pops up, you tend to see some colourful shapes, either circles or squares, and there can be one shape thats covering the whole screen or there could be tens of shapes that are dotted all over the place. And they can be lots of different colours and they can be different sizes. Each of those shapes represents a note. Now, this is really important that you can add notes and remove them. You cant really do that with a traditional musical instrument. But it's super important if youre trying to play a musical instrument, say, with your eyes. Imagine how complicated a piano interface is and how many notes there are on there, and if youre trying to hit that C sharp how difficult that is.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its so clever. What is it that made you come up with this idea? What was the thought process behind it, Barry?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, we were doing a programme this was over ten years ago a research and development programme with Cardiff Metropolitan University, it was called Listening Aloud. And the whole idea was that we were going to go into a school and work alongside young disabled people and teachers and music leaders to create musical instrument prototypes that could be accessible. Because if you think about it most musical instruments require two hands and ten very dextrous fingers to play them. And for a lot of people that cant access those musical instruments, well, theyre disabled by those musical instruments.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, a very social model, Barry. Tick.

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Very social model, yeah exactly. Its an instrument thats taken a decade to develop and now its being played by hundreds of young people all over the country.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You know one of my biggest regrets was, I used to play the piano, I got to grade 7, but then I stopped playing for a period of time and now my fingers arent good enough to play anymore. I just should have kept them going, you know. I recognise the importance of having an accessible instrument like the clarion.

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its not saying that theres not still a long way to go. We called it the clarion on purpose, because the clarion is actually like a medieval musical instrument. Its like a really old one that people dont play anymore. And what we wanted to do was make a statement to say yes, this instruments amazing and sounds very futuristic, you can play it with your eyes and it can sound like anything; but actually its a very early musical instrument as well. What we hope is that in 200 years time that there will be a new version of that clarion thats so different, so markedly different and so embedded in our musical culture that theyll be looking back at what we created going, wow look at that thing, [laughs] its moved on so far.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, the early work. This idea as well, Barry, about the sound and what sound youre going to give it, my goodness that is a big question, isnt it?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, it is. And its not a question that I can answer or should be able to answer really. But what we want to do is make a very considered effort to design a sound, alongside clarion musicians: so what do they want it to sound like. Working alongside composers like Michael Betteridge and saying, what do you want it to sound like. And working alongside professional orchestras to say, what do you need. Because the ultimate dream, like the big picture is that if the clarion has its own sound composers can write pieces of music that require clarions.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Exactly!

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And then orchestras will want to play it. And then that creates employment opportunities for clarion players.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Earlier Emma spoke with Alessandro Vazzana, who has played the clarion of the past five years, and is part of the National Open Youth Orchestra. Now, Alessandro is considered one of the best players around, and his mum Anne is also part of that chat and describes herself as a music enabler:

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 He is an electric wheelchair user. He also has Fragile X syndrome, which is both a learning disability and can impact communication, but obviously not musical ability.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Alessandro, why did you want to learn the clarion?

ALESSANDRO-泭 So I could play music.

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Alessandros ability to play with his hands has decreased over time.

ALESSANDRO-泭 Without my hands.

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thats right. And whilst hes played the piano and guitar and drums and various things in the past, he was losing that ability to play the musical instrument to his ability to play music in itself. The clarion has given Alessandro the ability to reach his potential and play to a high standard.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Fabulous. Alessandro, what do you enjoy about the clarion?

ALESSANDRO-泭 Playing great music with others.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And youve played in some impressive concerns. Can you tell me about some of the performances that you were involved with?

ALESSANDRO-泭 In the Barbican, Bristol, Bournemouth and Birmingham, NOY in 2022.

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 With the National Open Youth Orchestra, the Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra last week playing.

ALESSANDRO-泭 With the Bournemouth Symphony.

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 With the whole Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra plus other related organisations. So, there were about 60 to 70 musicians playing.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Wow! So, Alessandro what would you like the clarion to sound like?

ALESSANDRO-泭 Great.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Laughs]

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We use quite a lot either strings in some of the

ALESSANDRO-泭 Strings.

ANNE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 圭lassical and orchestral pieces. But when he does solo we quite often use wind, say like clarinet.

ALESSANDRO-泭 Wind, clarinet or flute.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was such a pleasure to talk to Alessandro and hear his passion, with help from his mum, Anne.

泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Barry, what was it like working with Alessandro?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I mean, Alessandro is pushing the instrument right up to its limit, which is so exciting.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But we all know about the grading for piano and violin etc. But the Associated Boards open assessment of the clarion starting next year thats going to be a bit different, isnt it, Barry?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 The grade system, I mean its typically for musical instruments that have a deep-rooted heritage, that go back hundreds of years, the musical repertoire, theyve got loads of music thats been written for them that you can pick from, and theyve got very well-established ways of being taught and being played that go back for generations. By contrast the clarion its a baby. Open music assessment isnt comparable to the kind of traditional grade 1, grade 2, grade 3 etc. Its more about a musician being able to play an instrument like the clarion, be assessed, have feedback given to them to help them progress in their musicianship; but without progressing through the grades at this stage.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, how do people get hold of the clarion if they want to play it then, Barry?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 At the moment its available through our programmes; but next year in 2024 were going to be making it available to everyone. The best way to find out about that would be to go to the website, theclarion.uk. join up to the mailing list and well let you know when the clarion is going to be available.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And whats the price range on it?

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 At the moment were still trying to work that out, but were keeping the price as low as we possibly can because we dont want price to be another barrier that people need to experience.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thank you so much, Barry. Honestly, its been a real pleasure to speak to you.

BARRY-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That was really fun. Thank you so much.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Sounds great everything that youre doing. Its right up my street. And thank you Alessandro and Anne for joining us too. If this has got you excited and you want to find out more about the clarion and the assessments then check out Open Up Music and ABRSM. Thank you also to Radio 3 Music Matters team who worked on this story with us. Its been a great collaboration. You can find their episode on adaptive instruments on 傖佪壖 Sounds.

JINGLE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Access All with Nikki Fox.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, its probably fair to say ADHD is still often seen as something that children or teenage boys have; but more recently weve been hearing about women getting a late diagnosis of ADHD and autism. Neurodivergent activist and author, Ellie Middleton, has a brand new book out all about this, and about being diagnosed at the age of 24. And she is with us now. Ellie!

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Hello.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We are very excited. Emma and I have both being listening to your dulcet tones.

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Youll be sick of hearing my voice already then before we even start [laughs]!

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, never.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its a nice voice, Ellie. Well, lets get straight to the point: what does ADHD look like in women and girls?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I think this is the big question as to why its been missed for such a long time, because the way in which were socialised as women and girls were told to behave, to sit still, to be polite, which means if were not diagnosed at a really young age that way that were trained to be, I guess, as women and girls affects the way that were masking our neurodivergence, whatever that might be. So, I think if you think of little boys and theyll be a bit boisterous and theyll be a bit naughty; whereas with the girls I think a lot of it is more internal. So, for me my hyperactively, Im not outwardly running around in circles, but my brain is just going round in circles at 100 miles an hour all the time. So, thats something that someone wouldnt be able to see from the outside but is very much still happening just internally.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What I love about the book, you explain things beautifully, I mean even Ive learnt stuff. Ive been in this job as a disability correspondent for years now, but Ive learnt things from you about language. So, thank you for that; Ill script better. But you also tell us a little bit about yourself. It sounds to me like you went from dropping out of school, and then becoming an author, in the space of two years. OMG.

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, it almost is like the poster girl of what can happen when you get the answers as to how your brain works, because it is literally like the perfect story [laughs] basically of dropping out of school, not being able to hold down a job. Because I was in this cycle of really struggling with my mental health for me it was like well, Im never going to be able to climb the career ladder or do anything of any importance because I just get overwhelmed so easily and I always have these really bad phases of anxiety and depression. Whereas now understanding what was causing those cycles of bad mental health, which was basically the clashing of ADHD wanting to do everything all of the time, and autism, having a very small battery and needing a lot more rest than most people, and having that understanding of how my brain works I can prevent those crashes in the same way, and I can work in a way that suits me better. Learning the way that I work has changed everything for me really.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Thats amazing. And what did it mean to you to find out actually, this is why I felt the way I felt?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 First of all it was like that absolute validation and relief and understanding of just finally I know whats going on and it all makes sense now. Its like realising that actually every single day for the rest of my life Im going to have to carefully manage my energy, because if I dont then I get burnt out. So, its like coming to terms with the ways that you are disabled I think by your disability is a big thing that people need the space to process. I think there was a lot of forgiveness for myself. When you grow up being told or feeling like you cant do everything the way that everyone else can and you just cant seem to hold down a job and you seem to not be able to hold friendships, although you in your heart of hearts know that youre not a bad person, its kind of inevitable that the more youre told that the more its going to sink in. And especially socially I had such an awful time, never fit in in a friendship group anywhere and just had big drama and fallouts and stuff. And I think I was just like, I must be a bad person because Im the common denominator here. And then I guess having that explanation of like, oh no, Im not bad, Im just different. And I was just going undiagnosed with these two disabilities my whole entire life. So, I was actually doing a really good job [laughs] of getting as far as I did.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What changed with the social side of things? What do you do differently now?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Finding my people first of all. So, through a lot of my work online Ive found friends who are also autistic and ADHD, which it solves a lot of issues because I dont have to explain myself if I go quiet or I dont have to explain why I might be blunt and to the point. Theyre the same, they understand. But also having that information for the friends that I do still have from beforehand they have that understanding as well of like, ah okay, if Ellie doesnt text me back for two weeks its not that she doesnt like me anymore or that she doesnt care about me, its that she might be overwhelmed or she might have a lot on her plate right now.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. And what about work wise? You said that you werent able to hold down a job before your diagnosis; whats changed in terms of work?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I think again its just that knowledge of learning how to work with my brain rather than against it. So, before I was doing either long hours in an office, which was just draining for me of, like, that sensory input all the time and making small talk all the time. I work from home a lot now because it just takes away from all that extra stuff. And I think Ive obviously been really lucky that Ive been able to be self-employed so I can give myself that flexibility. But I think another thing that I see looking back is because I didnt know otherwise I thought everyone was just as drained as I was after an eight-hour day in the office. So, I would finish work, I would go home, I would basically just have to lie in a dark room and scroll, and Id struggle to be able to have the energy to eat or to shower or anything like that. Every drop of energy had been taken from me from that day at work. But I guess I didnt see anyone else when they finished work either, so I didnt know that everybody wasnt just as drained as I was. So, now I have that knowledge of oh, Im supposed to have some battery left, so I wont use all of my energy at work; Ill work in shorter sprints or Ill make sure that Im going for a walk in between the day. And just being able to be a bit more flexible with it I think is a massive benefit of being self-employed.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 In your book, Ellie, you say that looking normal whatever that is looking pretty even, made people believe that there wasnt anything wrong with you. And you call that pretty privilege. Can you tell me about that?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. So, I guess pretty privilege is this idea of all the other types of privileges that people have, so like white privilege or able-bodied privilege kind of combined together to have this extra privilege. So, having that would mean that you have an easier ride in life or face less barriers. So, I think its very much a privilege in most contexts. However, in the context of getting access to support it almost is a hindrance, because in one way it's still a privilege because it maybe stopped me from being ostracised as much or stopped me from standing out as much because I looked normal.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Beautiful I think you mean.

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Laughs] thank you. But then because of that that kind of stopped people from realising that there was anything different about me because I sailed through social situations that I didnt actually have the skills to navigate, just because I looked more like I belonged there. So, I guess if Id have been more visibly different, you kind of picture the kid stood at the corner of the playground with no friends, and at that point someone would step in and say, well whats going on here, theres something, theyre being ostracised, theyre being left out, theyre not making friends, lets look into whats going on. Whereas when I didnt look as visibly different and I was able to mask, and my support needs were quite low, it was always put down to oh, well all teenage girls have troubles with friends, and all teenage girls have a rough time at high school. Whereas I had a social and communication disability.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 There are consequences, arent there Ellie, to not getting an early diagnosis? And you talk about the lost generation in your book.

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. Up until now a lot of the research thats been done to shape the diagnostic criteria of both ADHD and autism is all based on young white cis boys. So, for example one of the questions that I had to answer, that I use in the book as an example, is I collect information about categories of things, for example birds, cars, trains and planes. So, for me that was like no, I dont collect information about any of those things; but thats mostly because of the fact that Im a 24-year old woman and not an eight-year old boy. So, I think its just these very small and simple biases in the diagnostic criteria that mean that were not accounting for the experiences of women, of people marginalised by gender, people of colour, of adults. That ties into our understanding of oh, well it must be only young white boys that have autism or have ADHD, so then were not looking for it in girls, in people of colour. So, theres kind of all of these people that have gone their entire life without a diagnosis. And then I think a lot of us are getting to a certain age when were looking into things for ourselves and being like, actually theres something else going on here.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah.

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Especially with the internet thats allowing us to see through social media different peoples experiences that are similar to ours and giving us access to more information that we didnt previously have access to.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Going back a bit, just quickly, to collecting things, does that show up in you in another way?

ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, for me my special interests which actually I do think played into why I went undiagnosed as well, even as an adult I like football and I like indie music. And I think people that like those things tend to have quite an intense love for them as well. My intense level of interest wasnt seen as abnormal because a lot of the people that like that sort of thing [laughs] are equally intense about it. But because its not the same stereotypical interest of, like, the London Underground or trains or whatever it is that we think of when we think of these young boys, no one considers it to be a special interest; when actually it is.

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Its been so lovely chatting to you. Thank you so much. If you want to have a read of Ellies book it is brilliant. Its called Unmasked: the Ultimate Guide to ADHD, Autism and Neurodivergence. And it is out now.

泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Now, that is the end of our programme for this week. Were back next week, and were here all year round. All year round, my goodness. Now, send us a message and tell us what you like or what you want to hear more of: accessall@bbc.co.uk is our address. Or you can find us on X, formerly known as Twitter.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Were all about disability and mental health, so if you know someone who might particularly appreciate listening to us then please do tell them. Share us on your own social media as well, why dont you?

NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Until next time, goodbye people.

EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Goodbye.

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