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IN TOUCH 鈥� A Writers鈥� Special

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TX:听 22.12.2020听 2040-2100

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PRESENTER:听 听听听听听听听 PETER WHITE

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PRODUCER:听 听听听听听听听听听 MIKE YOUNG

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Good evening.听 In this strangest of years, one of our national sports seems to have been looking for crumbs of comfort 鈥� finding the things which in the more hectic past we hadn鈥檛 had time to do.听 And one of those has been writing apparently.听 One major publisher says that they鈥檝e received three times the number of manuscripts from authors without agents, compared to last year.

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So, for this pre-Christmas programme we thought it would be constructive fun to bring together three writers, all with visual impairments, and who have all published or written for performance, partly to tease out how their sight or the lack of it influences what they write and partly to encourage people who want to do it and want to have a go but who would welcome some tips.

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So, joining me from their homes we have a poet, a playwright and a novelist, who鈥檝e all written in other fields as well, to compare notes.听 So, why don鈥檛 I ask you all to do very brief self-introductions, starting with our poet.

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Toutoungi

Hi, I鈥檓 Claudine Toutoungi, I write plays and poetry.听 My new poetry collection is just out, it鈥檚 Two Tongues and it contains quite a lot of eavesdropping.

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Redvers-Rowe

Hi, I鈥檓 Mandy Redvers-Rowe, I used to be a comedy sketch writer but I鈥檝e been working towards longer forms.听 I鈥檝e co-written a radio play, had a TV drama with Jimmy McGovern and I鈥檓 currently writing with CBeebies.

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Bush

And I鈥檓 Tanvir Bush, I鈥檓 a novelist.听 Before I was a novelist, I was a filmmaker and that鈥檚 actually fed into my writing.

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White

So, a very talented and versatile group of writers.听 Claudine, if I can start with you.听 I could suppose that as a poet lockdown wouldn鈥檛 interfere with your work too much.听 Right or wrong?

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Toutoungi

It鈥檚 both been good and bad for writing, I think, this year.听 I mean the hard part is who to share it with.听 I鈥檓 so lucky where I live, in Cambridge, I have spent probably about 10 years going to open mic and, of course, we can鈥檛 do any of that.听 But I can鈥檛 complain because I do seem to have been occupying myself with a lot of poetry.听 I think partly being in nature a lot.

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White

How much has your sight or the lack of it influenced your poetry?听 I mean is it a factor because you have written some poems that are very specifically about it.

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Toutoungi

I definitely make a virtue of confusion, I go with it because now my vision鈥檚 quite misty as a result of corneal issues but that鈥檚 quite liberating in a way and, you know, if you鈥檙e walking along and you see a garden gnome but you mistake it for a small child or a bollard that can be quite funny and I think that that kind of thing can set me off on a riff.听 Poetry鈥檚 your ideal medium if you want to veer away from too much visual observation.听 You don鈥檛 want to be kind of hamstrung by the need to be literally accurate, you can go off on flights of fancy, you can go into dream or remembered bits of language, it鈥檚 very freeing.

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White

You have written Interior of Still Life, it鈥檚 called, haven鈥檛 you, which, if you can just set that up, we鈥檒l hear it.

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Toutoungi

I actually did a workshop where I was looking at still life with a lobster and was told that in the 16th-17th century they used fake lobsters in their still lives and that just set me off thinking about my own fake object being my cosmetic eye and riffing off of it lying on the side.

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Okay, and you鈥檝e read this for us.听 Here we go:

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Interior of Still Life read by Claudine Toutoungi

I left my eye on top of the sideboard.

It had no complaints. It wanted a

breather. It wanted to flip out, flop

free, cut loose from the grip of my

co-dependent lashes, my socket鈥檚

strictures and crap about keeping

up appearances. Screw all that! it

breathed, basking on tissue paper.

If it were a dog it might have rolled

over, but it didn鈥檛 bother. Blissed

out in that posture. Disposed to not

take in what was on offer:

wonky mirror, ceiling crack,

portion of a picnic by Cezanne.

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White

Was that intended to shock or cause a shudder or just make people laugh?

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Toutoungi

I mean I don鈥檛 ever have a fixed intention.听 I think I wrote a few different versions.听 I think if I enjoy saying the poem out loud and I get a sense from inflicting it on someone else that they weren鈥檛 appalled that they enjoyed it, then that鈥檚 a good sense.

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White

Well, you inflicted it on Mandy Redvers-Rowe, what did you think of that Mandy?

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Redvers-Rowe

Oh, I loved it, it鈥檚 great but I love Claudine鈥檚 poems 鈥� I鈥檝e been reading a lot of them in preparation for this.听 I love the way you take an idea and develop it and take it into all different contexts, so yeah, really good.

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White

Your writing background was very much in comedy, very overt comedy, how did you get started?

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Redvers-Rowe

Really because I wanted to be an actor and there weren鈥檛 any parts for blind actors, so, myself and a few friends started our own comedy company 鈥� all disabled actors.听 We wrote comedy for ourselves.听 Our comedy鈥檚 quite silly but it was addressing lack of representation.

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White

So, it was overtly political but鈥�

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Redvers-Rowe

Yes.

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White

鈥�in a way what you鈥檙e writing now has become more personal, hasn鈥檛 it, because, you know, plays 鈥� you wrote a radio play called Blind School about your teenage years after your sight deteriorated and now Second Sight, about the complications of sight being restored.听 What drew you to that?

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Redvers-Rowe

Well, I think it鈥檚 really important to have an angle as a writer and to offer a unique perspective.听 I have been asked to write more personally and it鈥檚 been hard, actually, not to just make a joke about it and avoid real feelings.听 I mean I think that鈥檚 the whole skill of a drama is to actually really engage with those things and really try to be honest.

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White

Because was the comedy, in a way, I know it was political but was it also a bit about avoiding 鈥� laughing at maybe what you originally, as you lost sight, found it quite hard to laugh about?

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Redvers-Rowe

Oh definitely, the starting point for most of our sketches was absolute fury 鈥� real, real anger 鈥� which we turned to comedy.听 But yes, I think as you get older, it鈥檚 not 鈥� things don鈥檛 present in such clear ways and things do become more complicated and emotions and feelings and exploring those things.

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White

Well yeah, you took on a complicated subject, in a way, with Second Sight.听 Let鈥檚 just hear an extract from that and then we can put it in context.

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Clip Second Sight

I realise that I was looking at everything through my perspective.听 So, I鈥檓 here and I鈥檓 ready to listen.听 I want to know how you see things.

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See, it鈥檚 such a small word but such a big thing and people say it all the time without even thinking but that鈥檚 all I鈥檝e thought about.听 I鈥檝e lost so many good things 鈥� things I love, things that make me happy.听 My job and Seb, Jamie and now you.

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You haven鈥檛 lost us.听 Jamie will be alright, she鈥檚 a good kid, she鈥檒l come through.

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Barry, I still love you, of course I do, it鈥檚 just that I got lost and distracted.

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And the thing about that scene is the things she鈥檚 lost she鈥檚 lost as a result of getting some sight back, hasn鈥檛 she?

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Redvers-Rowe

She鈥檚 lost her blindness, yeah, yeah.听 I just really wanted to challenge people鈥檚 perceptions.听 Everyone says to us, all the time, wouldn鈥檛 it be great if you got your sight back and I often think 鈥� well, would it?听 That鈥檚 a sighted person鈥檚 perception and a lack of understanding of the quality of the life we have, that鈥檚 what I wanted to really explore, that actually our life is valuable, our experiences are valuable and to simply wipe them away and replace them with sight, just something I wanted to really explore there.

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White

I can see why a lot of blind people might understand that, particularly people who鈥檝e been blind for quite a long time.听 What about people with sight, are they going to get that do you think?

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Redvers-Rowe

I really wanted them to, at least, think about it, whether they got it or not.听 I mean I think I got a lot of lovely feedback from the film crew and everyone and Casey and Ian were lovely and the other actors were amazing and they all really got quite excited about it because they hadn鈥檛 ever considered it as a thing.

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White

Let me bring in Tamvir Bush.听 I鈥檒l talk about your writing in a moment.听 Your sight has deteriorated over the years, I was just interested to know what you think about this idea of having sight restored.

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Bush

It鈥檚 so interesting.听 I read Blind School, just the other night, and it actually made me cry because even though you were going through that back as a teenager, that鈥檚 where I鈥檓 at the moment, in that it鈥檚 going very, very slowly.听 But I can鈥檛 watch films now without audio description and text is getting tricky and having that huge tantrum at the world 鈥� I don鈥檛 want to go blind!听 And I can鈥檛 imagine how that must feel to somebody who鈥檚 never seen, Peter, it鈥檚 just like 鈥� how bizarre, what a strange thing to rage against the dying of the light.

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White

I think that鈥檚 the complicated thing about visual impairment that we鈥檙e all so different because I guess, Claudine, you would look at this 鈥� because you still have your sight 鈥� but you obviously worry about the implications of what might be happening.

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Toutoungi

Yeah, it鈥檚 very uncertain.听 I mean I don鈥檛 have any easy answers in my future really and I know it鈥檚 going to become more of an issue but then, you know, I suppose for all writers you鈥檙e kind of accessing the uncertain all the time and as Mandy says, you鈥檙e hopefully going there, in some way, with whatever your project is to shake people up and challenge them and present the human condition which is, in all its many different aspects, very uncertain.

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White

Tanvir, we must talk about your book.听 Your most recent book is Cull, now that deals, more generally, with disability, although one of the main characters, in fact your heroine really, is visually impaired.听 It鈥檚 quite grim isn鈥檛 it?听 I wanted a clip from a scene in a job centre, which is supposed to be finding Alex, who鈥檚 your heroine, a job that suits her talent.听 Can you just set that up and read it for us?

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Bush

Yes, so this is at Job Seeker Central and Alex and her guide dog have gone in to get some support and they鈥檝e just been speaking to Lucy, who is her new empowerment officer, and she鈥檚 not making any headway and then this happens:

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鈥淚s there a problem?鈥澨� Lucy鈥檚 supervisor has crept up behind her, like Nosferatu, only with a clipboard.听 He doesn鈥檛 introduce himself but leans over Lucy and picks up Alex鈥檚 file.

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鈥淚鈥檓 sorry,鈥� Alex says, although she isn鈥檛, she鈥檚 irritated.听 鈥淵ou鈥檙e reading my file, so you obviously know who I am but you are?鈥澨�

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He is wearing gold-rimmed spectacles, purely so he can glare at people over the top of them.听 He does so now at Alex.

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鈥淢y name鈥檚 Mr Timms and I鈥檓 Lucy鈥檚 supervisor.听 I see your file is marked with a silver star, that鈥檚 excellent, we鈥檝e already been able to place you in work.鈥�

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Alex sighs.听 鈥淢r Timms, Lucy, I am in a placement, i.e., a temporary part-time experience.听 I did this kind of thing in my sixth form at school.听 As people who actually work in an employment office you must be aware that a placement is not a job, it doesn鈥檛 actually pay.鈥�

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Mr Timms is looking at Alex鈥檚 CV, she has a lot of qualifications and this seems to annoy him.

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鈥淚t says here you had a job with 成人快手 Voyager embedded with the troops in spite of your [errr]鈥︹�� he waves vaguely at Alex鈥檚 face; his tone is suspicious.听 She doesn鈥檛 respond.听 鈥淎nd Channel 14 films, goodness, all very glamorous.鈥�

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鈥淣ot really,鈥� Alex mumbles, although it had been.

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鈥淎nd now a much sought-after placement with the Cambright Sun.听 Are we going to be having trouble with you Alex?鈥�

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White

Now that sounds, that was clearly in a job centre but a slightly dystopian job centre, but it sounds like it鈥檚 come from experience 鈥� is that right?

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Bush

Absolutely.听 So, when you asked earlier about how your eyesight has affected your writing, when I was a filmmaker, I had to stop doing that and I found a huge amount of catharsis through writing, that was my first novel but of course I was just stuck.听 And so, I was on the dole, I couldn鈥檛 believe it 鈥� I couldn鈥檛 believe the cruelty, I couldn鈥檛 believe the way people were treated.听 What I decided to do was to write a satire looking at that but also looking at the really deep darkness underneath, which is the idea about eugenics and state sponsored eugenics.听 Like Mandy and Claudine, I have tried to put humour in there too, to tickle people into reading, I didn鈥檛 want to beat anyone over the head.

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White

And running through it, it is this idea of people being treated in these situations as their disability rather than as themselves.听 Claudine, have you had to deal with this at all 鈥� Claudine 鈥� yet?

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Toutoungi

I鈥檓 realising, I鈥檓 probably slightly earlier stage than Tanvir鈥檚, it really hits the core of your identity and you have to go there, I think, as a writer because if you鈥檙e getting consumed by fury, which I also put my hand in the air and admit does happen, you have to put it in there and explore it.

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White

Can I just ask you all, what advice you would give to people who are teetering on the edge of wanting to try this?听 I鈥檓 just wondering what you would pass on.听 I mean Tanvir, you do run courses for people.

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Bush

Yeah, I do, I write creative writing courses and then they鈥檝e been keeping me going through this last year as well because I haven鈥檛 been able to write, I鈥檝e been so distracted and feeling quite low about things.听 So, for me, it鈥檚 all about starting small, doing little things to get the brain whizzing, even if that鈥檚 writing under your desk, as opposed from at your desk or actually having a conversation with your dog and then writing that down and really asking him profound questions about life.听 For me, everyone can write, everyone can play.

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White

Mandy, what would you want to pass on, after your experience in so many different fields?

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Redvers- Rowe

I think you just need to write and get involved in a group.听 So, for example, I鈥檓 heavily involved in DANK, which is Disabled Artists Network Community, and they run free writing courses, which you can book into every week to work with a writer, sharing your work.听 And then, obviously, if you want to move towards professionalism it is a hard road but it鈥檚 definitely one, if you鈥檙e driven to do that, and I do sort of feel you need to be driven because it鈥檚 a hard, hard road.听 I mean I was very lucky at the beginning of my career and I seemed to fall into being quite successful quite early but then I went through years and years of not being anywhere but still writing and working in lots of other jobs.

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White

Claudine, one bit of advice?

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Toutoungi

Similar to Tamsin really, just doing little 鈥� I think these little short bursts, as she said, a dialogue to a pet.听 But also, you don鈥檛 have to wait for the perfect moment, if you suddenly are having a bad day, that鈥檚 a good time to do a short burst because then you collect a kind of diary of your grumpy mood, your exuberant mood, your flat mood, your hungry mood 鈥� do it at different times of the day, little bursts.听 And also, if you don鈥檛 like writing by hand or typing, you can even just do it as monologue into your phone recorder, which I do a lot of.听 People do think you鈥檙e mad but it鈥檚 fun.

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White

Right.听 Claudine, I want to end with a poem of yours, just because it is coming up to Christmas, we want some fun and this is another experience that I reckon that all four of us must have had.听 You tell us.

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Toutoungi

Well, this came out of a naughty bit of eavesdropping in a basement clinic in 鈥� basically in Moorfield鈥檚 Eye Hospital 鈥� and it鈥檚 all light, it鈥檚 a docu poem, it鈥檚 all true.

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White

Okay, here it goes:

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These are the daylight hours but we absorb, beneath the surface, tepid lighting.

Shrink 鈥� feet please 鈥� for a husband wheeling woman

Fixate on trolleyed notes and staff who pass and pass

Does anyone believe in all this striding or the Litany of strange stranger names?

鈥淪hahida Hulk, Dawn Carrier, Angela Chart?鈥�

Something is up.听 Something is very definitely crawly and dark on the outskirts of our vision.

A girl tells Hazel in reception they were 9.15 and now it鈥檚 12.08.

Gets back: 鈥淲e go by numbers here not times.鈥�

And X and V and Y start crawling and if it鈥檚 just a black dot on the horizon

Why is it following us?

What do we do if it ripens?

It鈥檚 hot, not letting up.听 We could strip.

鈥淨uiet today,鈥� says Hazel.听 鈥淚 like it.鈥�

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White

We could be there couldn鈥檛 we, in that waiting room.听 I think I was six when I had my first four hour wait in a waiting room.

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Bush

Yes, we spent a lot of our lives there probably.

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White

Absolutely.听 All of you, thank you so much for giving us only a peep into your world, we must perhaps invite you back to take a longer look.听 Many thanks to Claudine Toutoungi, to Mandy Redvers-Rowe, to Tanvir Bush and we would love you to tell us about your writing experiences 鈥� successes and failures 鈥� and I guess it鈥檚 never a failure if you鈥檝e tried, which I think is what you were all saying.

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You can email intouch@bbc.co.uk or go to our website bbc.co.uk/intouch where you can download this and previous programmes.听 From me, Peter White, producer Mike Young, all our wonderful guests and studio managers, Owyn Williams and Calvin Griffith, goodbye.

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