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Without it, I鈥檇 either have to walk everywhere, which isn鈥檛 practical, especially on antipsychotic medication that drains my energy and means I sometimes wander cheerfully into the path of cars, or stay at home. The Pass allocated by local councils to the over 60s and those with qualifying disabilities allows me to carry on living a mostly independent life.

One night at the pub, I was emptying my pockets looking for my keys when it fell out. It lives in a distinctive orange wallet and has the words 'FREEDOM PASS' emblazoned across it. An acquaintance picked it up for me and cocked an eyebrow. 鈥淗ow come you get one of these?鈥� he asked. I cocked an eyebrow right back.

鈥淏ecause I鈥檓 disabled鈥�, I responded. With a barely concealed smirk, he replied, in the laborious tone of disbelief, 鈥淏ut you鈥檙e not disabled鈥�. And, although my social worker, the Department of Work and Pensions and Islington council, beg to differ, a part of me agreed.

Disability is defined as, 鈥渁 physical or mental impairment that substantially limits one or more major life activities鈥�.

Having a mental illness does "substantially limit鈥� my life. There are times in which I barely function on any meaningful level. No one would look at me and guess that sometimes I need help bathing myself, or that there are times I can鈥檛 cook a meal. But I do, and there are.

And yet, even though I鈥檓 speaking to you from Britain鈥檚 best disability website (oh yes), I feel like a total fraud. I felt like a fraud when I was filling in my Disability Living allowance forms, I felt like a fraud when I was staring blankly ahead for the passport photo I needed to get my Freedom Pass and I felt like a fraud when I retorted to my friend. I just have a mental illness, and some people don鈥檛 even believe that mental illness exists. Though I live with one, even I question whether I鈥檓 ill or just weak. And when it comes to mental disabilities, many people may question whether mental illness counts as a disability at all. Why should I get a Freedom Pass? What do I know about genuine disability?

Many people associate the word 'disability' with physical disabilities and chronic mental impairment. They think of it as something that you can see or hear. If you have a disability that nobody can see, then, to the world at large, it doesn鈥檛 exist.

I don't have the niggles other disabled people have with the public. Nobody tuts at me on buses and trains for taking up too much space. Nobody talks down to me, asks me if they can help with that, or makes an assumption on what kind of person I might be just by looking at me. And I have no problems when it comes to accessing buildings. When I鈥檝e been interviewed for jobs, the only way my prospective employers would know about my disability is if I told them. I have the choice not to.

When I suffered through workplace bullying instigated by my having a mental illness - a rather terrible period of my life - I was informed by a friend that the Disability Discrimination Act could protect me. I shrugged and said that鈥檚 for people with real disabilities. I don鈥檛 face some of the challenges that people with physical disabilities do every single day, so do I really deserve the same rights?

I am, in some ways, fortunate to have a disability that nobody can see because then Joe Public is less inclined to define me by it.

Likewise, in some ways, I鈥檓 unlucky, because it means that, when it鈥檚 relevant, I have to explain, cajole and reveal more about myself than I鈥檇 really like to. It leaves one feeling insecure, defensive and, occasionally, fraudulent. There are times - and I don鈥檛 like myself for this - that I wish I could point at something and say, 鈥淭here鈥�.

As I grow older and acquire some tenuous wisdom, I understand that it鈥檚 less about having a right to refer to myself as disabled and more about what right I have as a human being living with an illness that causes me disability. This includes giving me the rights to a Freedom Pass. Although - and this was a secret - I did hide it in a zebra print wallet so it was less obvious I was using it. I have the right to be funky.