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Do you ever wonder what people feel when breaking someones heart? Do they feel guilt,regret ,shame or do they go on without giving it a moments thought? If I said I wish him a happy life with none of the above feeling i'd be a liar and hypocrite and then i'd just be as bad as him.
'i hope you find a partner soon' he said to me 'i wont' i replied bluntly, beacuse folks, i loved him, i still love him.
I dont know what was going round his head and as much as i try to understand the more i'm confused.
I went and took a shower straight after he dropped the bombshell and ran out of my life most girls whould cry, scream or both but I, I took a shower then got my diary and tried to write something to motivate me but it turned out poor.
Now i spend most of my time writing or listening to music anything to stop me from thinking of him.
I tried to talk to other guys but i dont want to anymore, I dont know if he cares or even remembers me.
I guess the world went on, we both changed a little but isn't that destiny?
Everyday is a litlle more pain but a little more enlightenment.
One day i'll find my destiny and it will be mine, not my parents, not my cultures....mine.